A Moment of Clarity


My pre-teenage daughter and I were walking back from the beach mid-afternoon through the over commercialized touristy section of Virginia Beach.  She wanted to go into one of the many t-shirt, beach towel shops along the way.  So we went in.

There was a lady pushing a wheel chair.  The body of the lady in the chair was twisted and mangled, and it was doubtful if her voice capacity was any more than a few singular syllable primal grunts.  It was obvious that she was totally dependent on the caregiver that pushed her around.

It was one of those moments when you silently cried out to God or the universe with a repetition of whys.  My plea must have been heard.  Time seemed to come to a stop as the room seemed to separate into everyone else and myself and the lady in the wheelchair.  Other than our two souls the remainder of the room overcrowded with shoppers and so much noise became a low whining buzz, as if barely audible around us.  At that moment our eyes met, but more than our eyes, our souls met.  There was a communication deeper than any words could ever convey.  The woman in the chair in that horrible shell of a body spoke volumes in her message to me.  She was an advanced soul volunteering her own self in this manner to teach compassion to her caregiver and all that encountered her.  This revelation came with such a knowing.  It was not a situation I broke down by any means of thought.  So, there was a reason to atrocities such as this, at least in this case.  The lady’s soul smiled on my own soul.  All was a smile and compassion in that soulful world.

Suddenly, time began again, and the room returned to the state of reality we are accustomed to, or at least the dream we have conditioned ourselves to be in.  There was again a high volume of noise and people pushing past each other, and the caregiver pushed the lady on.

That was nearly twenty years ago, but had such an impact.  I’m thankful for moments of clarity, however, fleeting.

I was out most of the day yesterday.  It was nearly midnight and as I was doing yoga, one of those moments of clarity flashed before my eyes, or third eye.  I awoke at 4 AM and felt the same clarity in a different manner.  I lay in bed for a solid hour in the comfort of that clarity before rising.

 

God Sometimes Speaks Through Socks


This happened to me several years ago.  I felt compelled to write about it but didn’t until a few days later as the result of one of those synchronicities.  I read an article about a discussion topic of  “How Does God Communicate With You?”

A few mornings earlier I awoke thinking I must look for that missing sock today.  These were my favorite socks.  I had one sock, but one was missing.  It had been missing for a month.  I kept thinking it would turn up, falling out of laundry or something like that.  Since this was Saturday my husband was home and I would get him to move the washer and dryer out thinking perhaps it had fallen behind one of them.

Being a lazy Saturday, I fell back asleep for about an hour.  We finally arose, and had breakfast.  I had forgotten, once again about the sock.  After breakfast, we started talking about spiritual things.  I had a question for God.  I get so involved in the “whys” and the mysteries of the universe.  I was doing some deep soul searching.  I prayed rather hard asking God a question.  Immediately, intuitively I got the answer, almost as if God were telling me directly.  It seemed so clear.  I wasn’t too crazy about the answer, but just feeling God’s presence in that moment was reassuring.  Silently, I replied back,  “that felt so real, but “just give me a sign.”

My husband at the same moment walked back into the room.  Just minutes before he said he was going to change into some old work clothes, while leaving me alone to say my prayer and ponder all this.  He returned, standing in the doorway putting on an old shirt, to go work outside.  As he was putting it on, the sock fell to the floor.

I’m thankful for synchronicities and answered prayer.

 

Law of Attraction Gone to the Dogs


I’m thankful for synchronicity and answered prayer.

(I believe that every genuine thought is a prayer, and that every prayer is answered.  “Ask and ye shall receive.” On some days we think today I’m going to be happy and we are.  On other days we think I’m going to be sick, and we are.  Thoughts can’t be forced.  Forced thoughts only provide counter thoughts.  I do believe outlooks can be changed towards the positive which in turn can change our thoughts towards the positive.  This is a re-post of something I previously wrote – something true.)

So much is written about the law of attraction.  I see it working in my life daily.  Sometimes I judge it as good, sometimes bad.  This is an example of good.

I’m learning more about the process.  Mostly we go about our lives letting our subconscious control us.  The subconscious is like a computer waiting for commands, functioning well when we have a clean cache and give it precise commands, or operating erratically when we give it confused signals.  I have discovered through various life experiences that the subconscious respects and responds to authority, better yet, authority with determination.  I’m going to give true examples here.

We had buried our Labrador Abigail.  She had been with me for almost sixteen years and with my husband for over a year.  Dogs probably do outlast spouses in this day and age.  It’s almost a must to have a dog when you live on a farm.  It took almost six months before I became ready for another dog.  We were beginning to plan out our hiking trails in the woods surrounding the house.  Our neighbors were reporting see bob cats and even bears in the area.  This hadn’t really bothered me, as I hadn’t experienced sightings myself.  My aunt had made the comment, “Aren’t you scared walking in the woods by yourself?”  Well, I hadn’t been; but the power of her words seeped in.

The next day as I was walking enjoying the beauty of nature that busy voice within me was talking away.  It said, “God, I think I’m reading for another dog now, preferably a German Shepard, as you know that is what Chris wants, since he seems to think that breed will provide me protection out here.”  My busy inner voice continued on to some other matter, as I walked on towards the house.

The next day I went out to enjoy the path we had lain out thus far.  As I was within a tenth of a mile from the house, I saw what seemed to be a pure bred German Shepard facing me.  We both stood there frozen staring at each other for a moment.  My mind kept saying over and over, please be friendly… please be friendly.  The dog followed me back to the house.  It took a little while for me to remember the prayer  that I had stated the day before.  And when I did, I was in total awe.  We named the dog Abner.  We suspected that there were two dogs; one died along the interstate, the other made it’s way through the woods to our property.  Abner was old and sad, as if he had lost his partner.  He only lived a few months, but he had a good home I think until his death.

After Abner’s death Chris said, “What we need is a puppy.” The next day a lady who worked in his office approached him asking if we might be interested in one of a bunch of German Shepard Elk Hound puppies her aunt needed to give away – another moment of astonishment to say the least.  She was visiting her aunt that weekend and would even bring one to us, and we lived quite a distance.

Well, Elmer was a very friendly dog, and perhaps I gave him too much attention as a puppy.  He loved the long walks in the woods, but he wanted that kind of nearness on a non-stop basis.  He liked to roam the neighborhood.  Being surrounded by other farms we have a large neighborhood.  One day he didn’t return after one of his outings.  All of our inquiries led to dead ends.  Different neighbors would say I saw him a few days ago. We think a family, with children, eventually adopted him.  Elmer moved on.  We moved on.

One day as I was mowing the lawn I thought about Abigail as I was mowing over her grave.  I wondered if she had been reincarnated.  I remembered how she was so afraid and would practically knock me down to protect her self from other dogs.  In our neighborhood, there were two vicious dogs; obviously, the owner had trained to be hostile.  Getting past these dogs was a real chore.  Abigail proved to be no protection against them.

I silently, with determination and authority said, “God, you know I really didn’t want a German Shepard.  That was really what my husband wanted.  What I really want is another lab, this time with a little bit more fierceness built in.”

Later that day, the phone rang.  It was Chris.  He said, “Jerri, someone dumped two lab puppies off in one of the professor’s backyard last night.  He wants to know if we would be interested?”  So, wow, can you imagine my surprise!  Well, by this point, I guess I wasn’t SO surprised.  We’ve had Barney now for over three years.  We extended our trail to the woods nearing the house of the neighbor with the vicious dogs.

Unbeknownst to us he expanded his wild pack from two to five.  At one time, Barney held all five dogs off me.  He got a little scratched up in the process, but that didn’t deter him.  Chris fenced that area so neither Barney nor I would have to contend with them.

Barney and I just returned from our walk.